i dont want to sound like your average nicotine addicted teen, but thats literally what i am.
im 15, been smoking for a year and 2 months. cigarettes to be exact, ive tried to stop multiple times already and its gotten to the point where it’s just muscle memory to grab a cigarette and smoke while doing something (ie, tiktok, playing games on my phone, listening to music, youtube, hell even eating or drinking??)
im not gonna say that it wont affect my health because ive only been smoking for a little over a year now, because thats exactly how the addiction worsens, and i can already tell my lungs and body are turning to shit. i cough up stuff a hell of a lot more, and every morning when i wake up i get that weird tobacco taste. (i would add some occasional chest pain but even thinking about that makes me so fucking nervous.)
this all started because of a certain someone i was dating a year ago smoked when he would have his bipolar fits, he said it helped him think. me, being head over heels, tried it too. he has stopped from what i know, i haven’t. (it’s not an option to talk to HIM about it either because 1. We broke up, and 2. He would only lecture me on how obsessed i am with him and how much of an idiot i am.)
i should also mention i had vaped and used juuls before, but i had no intent on smoking at all. it was more of an occasional peer pressure thing. that could be part of the reason why it started though.
i could blame this on as many things or people as i want but in the end i chose to pick up a cigarette, i wasnt held at gunpoint to do any of this to myself.
so yep!! thats that, if you have any advice to make this an easier process please let me know, (ive looked up ways to quick faster but all of them have failed because my self destructive ass couldn’t last a day without a smoke.)