Alright so this is anonymous but I have never ever told someone about this because I am so ashamed of it. There was this guy I’ll call him D. D and me met online and he told me he has a crush on me. at the time i didn’t like him. As time went by I liked him more and more but never said anything. Here’s why and i don’t know i hate myself for doing this so much but I lied about my age and told him I was 16 and he was like 14 I was the same age as him. Why I lied is a whole different story. I lied about so much. I lied about having a boyfriend to look “cool”. So next I uh try killing myself and tell him and he began to distance himself for 2 months. Fast-forward he texts me apologizing and I say it’s fine but it wasn’t the same. We lose contact again because it just wasn’t the same. Then I apologize and say it’s best to go our separate ways and we do. But what he doesn’t know is I love him. I love everything about him. It’s been 2 years now and I am not over it. I feel so bad because I lied to him. I hate myself for it. We could have been something but I ruined everything. and this isnt even the first person I lied to.