i couldn’t choose just one category as my life had involved almost all of them. my mother abandoned me when i was 7 to be on crystal meth, and she would always choose guys over her own children. we finally started (supervised) visits with her, and one of her boyfriends sons had sexually assaulted me. this gave me major trust and abandonment issues. i started to self harm because i felt numb, because feeling pain was better than feeling nothing. i genuinely hate the way i look, i need constant validation or else i feel, worthless. my dad is very mentally abusive. when i was 14 i lost my great grandma, my best friend. and now lastly, there was this boy. the most amazing boy. the first time i ever non platonically said the words “i love you”. the difference between him and i? i meant it when i said those words. i could tell you his favorite word, his favorite article of clothing, that he hated slow walkers, i could tell you about how his eyes lit up when he talked about his favorite type of music, but yet, he couldn’t remember the color of my eyes. “blue” he said.”they’re green”. one sided love is probably the most heartbreaking part of my story.when you can slowly see someone losing interest in you, that is if they even had it at the start. just remember that actions speak louder than words. ESPECIALLY when it comes to the words “i love you” please if you say those words, show it. it hurts.!but uhm yeah that’s my story, it’s not very interesting but it’s something. i hope everyone reading this, hasn’t only an amazing day but an amazing life, you’re worth it and i love you. <3