Accepting the thought that you only have yourself is so scary. I am so alone, but i have people around me. But when ever they call or text I just dont respond and i dont know why. I sit in my room all day long as my family goes on about there life, its like the world is spinning while i am still sitting in my room. Nothing brings me joy anymore, everything seems so meaningless. I just want to be loved. I just want to feel happy. I wish i could explain this feeling i have but i cant. I cant explain how empty and meaningless i feel. I wanna go home so bad but im home. I look at myself and have to tell myself that i have to live through my life alone. I,m numb to everything, all the yelling from my mom telling me how much of a hassle i am and that im no fun and to just fake being happy. Mom I'm im trying not to make your life miserable and boring anymore. I want to feel again...please.
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