i don’t want a boyfriend, but i do at the same time. i’m not stable and available enough for one, but i find myself constantly wanting one. the problem is, i only wanna date 30+...not any men, just paul wesley ian somerhalder matthew grey gubler joseph morgan daniel gilles and arraon hotchner (idk the actors name lmao) but i also like this one guy at my school. he’s going into 8th like me lol but i don’t want a boyfriend because i’m independent and happy with myself but at the same time i want one to cuddle with and to have someone to hug at sad times. but i also find that cringey....unless it’s with one of the men i listed. i literally don’t wanna do that in middle school but if it was with one of the actors i listed i’d be fine with it...opps