I don’t know if this counts as sexual assault so i just put other. I was nine years old when some one first touched me. It was in the middle of afterschool and i was passing by to try and get chips. I cant remember his name but i think he was a year older then me. He grabbed my ass & my ��. I remember going home and thinking about it every day before i fell asleep. The next day i told some of the afterschool staff. But he not nothing but a slap on the wrist. (He got kicked out of the program later for different reasons). But hey at least it wasn’t rape right? Fast forward a couple years and now i’m a seventh grader. I was going to my locker during homeroom to collect the books i needed to do my homework that night. I heard one of the boys in my class shout to his friend to turn around and stare at my ass. I told him off of course. But i kept being friends with him. I was scared. i Felt like no one was gonna take me seriously anyways I then found out that some of the boys in my class (who were my friends) were saying genuinely disgusting things about me and my body. Saying they’d “put a bag on my head because i’m ugly” . talking about me like i’m nothing more then a body.That they had touched themselves to a video of me. I knew that and i didn’t say anything. I was scared. I always tell women that it’s never their fault. But i cant help but wonder if i did something to make it happen. Maybe i shouldn’t have worn those leggings that day. Maybe i should have told them something. Maybe i need to start dressing differently. I knew they would stare when i got up so i started wearing my winter coat 24/7 because it covers my bum. I would only take it off if i was told to by my teachers. I’m 13 years old and all of my friends are getting into stupid kid relationships. But i cant. I have trouble making male friends. When i try to talk about this with my friends they always brush it off. Except for one friend but i don’t even know her in real life. I don’t think men understand that it genuinely hurts to be sexualized your whole life. And when you try and talk about it how it gets brushed off. I feel so much more comfortable around women now. I know women are capable of bad things too. But it’s just the sexualization has always come from men. Sometimes i feel like my story isn’t valid because i was never raped. Does every women go through this? Am i being dramatic? I cant help but feel like i genuinely am. At lot of people say that children in this generation have no childhood. But was i really given time to be a child? I still struggle with it a lot. But i try not to think about it. It wasn’t until last year that i realized what happened to me. I kinda surprised the memory. Thank you for listening. My heart goes out to anyone who’s had to experience this, or worse.
top of page
bottom of page
Of course your story is valid every story is! And as disgusting and horrible as it is to say it most women go through being sexualized there whole lives and get told that its nothing and boys will be boys and we can't do anything about it. and thats stupid but its more stupid because they might be right.