i basically went out with this guy a year and a half ago. he was amazing and was my first love, my first kiss, etc. i had liked him for months. we dated and then all the sudden he started getting distant and i didn’t know why, he never explained just broke up with me. well he told my best friend, he apparently had feelings for her, not me. i kinda spiraled then. things were going wrong and ig i lost it and i (TW) self harmed for a while, still do. i was getting better but even though i was getting better i didn’t get over him. it’s been a year and a half, ive liked him for around a year. i’ve tried to distract myself but it never works. well he’s graduating now, he’s going out of state for college i think and then moving to france afterwards...i saw him the other day and i just lost it after seeing him. i realized he was leaving and i broke down. i started crying as soon as i got home. i don’t know what to do once he’s gone. he’s been such an important part of my life and now that he’s leaving? i don’t know what to do