i feel like i can’t talk to my friends and no ones there for me anymore . my mom got drunk before it was even 1pm today . my friend make me upset but i’m starting to think i’m the problem. i’m not like them. i don’t smoke or drink and my parents are strict so i can’t hang out with them a lot and they dont like that. my bestfriend always told me that we wont be friends with people we both dont like. she’s currently hanging out with a girl she knows i don’t like idk maybe she didn’t get the hint i was upset . i miss my ex i wish i could talk to him but i feel like he just doesnt wanna hear from me. i want more freedom . i wanna be closer with my friends but i don’t wanna smoke or anything they like to do like smoking . sometimes i feel like the toxic one cause i talk about them. i seriously don’t deserve any of my friends i talk bad about them i really don’t deserve anything. i just wanna cry and be alone . and i have no one to talk to about anything . my moms house half the people support trump and are racist . my mom is 100% racists and i’m starting to think she’s a little homophobic and she knows i’m bisexual. i hate it here i want to leave.