i made a post on here a couple weeks ago about some..... non-platonic feelings i’ve had toward my girl best friend (i am a girl also) and how i was struggling with them. if you’re interested, it’s on my page, but it’s not really necessary to understand this post. i’m writing on here because she is not out to anybody except me and one other person so i can’t talk to my friends about anything, because i don’t want to out her. anyway... yeah i like her. we were talking tonight about this girl we know and she was saying that she was coming to terms that she used to have feelings for her when they were close. she was detailing some of the experiences she had that made her realize that. and that shit HURT. she was talking about the physical pain of missing someone and it honestly just hurt knowing that wasn’t me. it sucks because i care about her a lot as a friend, more than i do in any other way, and i would never want to sacrifice our friendship because it means so much more than dumb feelings. but it honestly just really, really sucks that she doesn’t return feelings. ige obviously liked people before but i’ve never had feelings for a very close friend, and it’s a much different experience- one that i’m struggling with. i think i’ve liked her for a very long time, three or four years even, but i’ve just repressed it or written it off as platonic because i’ve only recently come to terms with my sexuality. sorry, this has become a rant sort of, but i just needed to get that out because i have nobody in my life i can talk to. anyways the end sorry if some of the sentences don’t make sense lmao
i hope she never reads this