i was talking to my parents about the fact that suicide has crossed my mind but, im not suicidal it's just the thought entering my head. they just said "wow your life is perfect imagine people who actually have problems if you are thinking about suicide. imagine what they think of." i had no idea what to say. they always said that "what? no your life is perfect." they just don't see so much of what happens. i can't talk to them about my problems because they always somehow get belittled. maybe i'm just not grateful. maybe they were right this whole time. but they just don't know how it is to feel useless and unloved and like you will never be anyone's first choice but always a second. or if i have a problem with my looks "what? your'e the most beautiful person i have ever seen you are perfect hush" it's flattering but the kind words do nothing but feel like them lying out of pity. thanks for staying if u made it here <3
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