I know I shouldn’t want an eating disorder. And heck, I know what it does to people. But I can’t help try my hardest to loose weight. I honestly feel like it’s impossible for me to loose weight. I do diets, I fast, I exercise, I eat healthy. Nothing works. So if skipping meals gets me there. I might as well do it. My friends all warn me about my actions but they don’t get it. They all have fast metabolisms and are all skinny. They don’t get it. I’ve downloaded apps upon apps and calorie counters but they don’t work either. I’ve moved onto a journal and google to write everything down. The thing is though, I can go hours without eating. But the second I do I just can’t stop. I’ll eat and eat and clean out the snack cupboard and I’ll even add dessert to the total of things I binge. But I can’t purge no matter how I try. I just wanted to vent to someone or something because I know no one else will listen. Thanks.