as the title states, i’m afraid i’m developing one and i don’t know what/how to get out of it before i cant.
for as long as i can remember my parents have been making comments on my body. for a long part of it it was due to the fact i was considered underweight but i‘ve now reached a healthy weight and they’ve moved to calling me ‘fat’ joking around that i’m gaining too much weight etc & it’s been getting to me recently. i’ve been self conscious of myself for what feels like forever and my body used to be one of the fee things i liked about myself but i’m growing to hate everything about it. i also unfortunately came across edtwt and it just felt like a rabbit hole i kept falling down and it’s like i can’t keep thinking of the things i saw there and they seem to be influencing my choices.
i also have a habit of placing an incredible amount of hope onto one specific thing and telling myself it’ll all be okay once i get it. like i spent the last three
months convincing myself somehow my depressive episode will go away once i dye my hair and it’ll all be okay and i cried when i did finally dye my hair because it obviously didn’t solve anything and i’m afraid i’m going to do that with my weight.
i’m so sorry this is happening to you. i understand what you’re going thru and you aren’t alone, but don’t listen to your parents! or twitter! or what a stupid broken society says you should do about your body. you are BEAUTIFUL. you are worth eating what you want. all bodies are different, don’t forget that. and please if you think it might get more serious, contact your doctor or maybe a therapist <3 i’m always here if you want to talk