Orthorexia, or orthorexia nervosa, is an eating disorder that involves an unhealthy obsession with healthy eating. Unlike other eating disorders, orthorexia mostly revolves around food quality, not quantity. Unlike with anorexia or bulimia, people with orthorexia are rarely focused on losing weight. I grew up never having any body struggles or negative thoughts. I just simply ate when I was hungry. No thought of what I was eating, how I was eating it etc. At around the age of 13 I started to become very negative about my body. I thought that how my body looked reflected who I was as a person, and that beauty was thin and fit. I ended up making the decision to try and loose a couple pounds. I have been an athlete ever since I was in middle school. I work out 5 days a week for 4 hours so getting enough food is very important to keep me energized. At first it was going great I was eating healthy, feeling great, and loosing weight. I felt so powerful. Over time I grew obsessive. I remember the first time I got so obsessive with living a healthy lifestyle. My friends asked me if I wanted to go for some fast food. I sat in my room and sobbed because I wanted to go but I did not want to eat bad food and throw away all my progress. Over more time I grew so obsessive over what I ate. I would eat the same thing everyday and never go off track. But when I did go off track I would criticize and punish myself.!. The problem was is that nobody knew I was was dying on the inside. I looked healthy and in shape . And now I have to live with this mind set for the rest of my life.please help.