I never had a good relationship with my dad but I liked it that way.. it was balanced but he wanted more and i didnt.. He got caught up and left, my mom never really liked him and wanted to leave him. She was upset that he left though, and wanted him to come back to raise me. Family problems lead to relationship problems which also lead to me self harming. I swear when i do it.. I just wanna die on the spot but there’s always something stopping me trom going all the way. I wish it was different but it isn’t. I might push myself all the way. Ill admit it some of this is for attention. I just want to show him and everybody what looking past my symptoms will do. I want peace.