How is it possible that the person you admire, the one with whom you feel safe, destroys you in an instant, you tell him everything because you trust him, but anything that bothers him, destroys you in a jiffy, I'm talking about my sister , since I was three years old I have admired her too much, I would not endure life without her, worse at the same time, it makes me feel that I am worth nothing and every night I cry because of her, worst of all, is that she hears me cry and, no he cares, he laughs or says "seriously? are you going to cry about that", I always try to cry in silence, to avoid making me feel worse than I already am.
And in those moments I feel that I should die, or kill her, and then, I feel that he really loves me, I fall back into his lies, and he destroys me again and again, it's always the same.
That's all, I would like to vent more with you, but I think you will not be interested or I will bore you, so, if you really got here, thank you, and I hope you can support and advise me