i had a big fight with my mum when she was drunk and then her and my step dad had a fight and i got the blame for everything like always, then the next day she just pretended like nothing happened and anyway that was a week ago but she said some really fucked up shit to me so i haven’t forgave her and i won’t for a very long time but i just pretend like everything’s fine when it’s really not but she can’t tell bc she doesn’t fucking care and i don’t talk to my dad so it feels like i have no one and i’m not talking to my step dad about it bc i have never even liked him and i can’t talk to my brother and sister that live with me bc their my stepdads kids with my mum, but the only siblings i would want to talk to about this stuff is the one that lives with my dad and then other 2 that got taken away and it hurts so bad bc i feel like my whole family hates me excpet the siblings that i can’t see and won’t be seeing for a very long time and it honestly hurts so bad bro i miss my lil homies and i can’t talk to my cousins bc we just don’t vibe like we used to. my friends think it’s annoying how i always have problems so i don’t tell them anyway and they just make it about them self, they can’t fix it and deep down they don’t really care that much so what’s the point. the only people i can talk to is my dads friends kids their like brothers to me and we have gotten in some fucked up situations together, we have seen eachother at our lowest but it’s just so hard to tell them things because if my dad finds out things will be even worse bc i got separated from my dad when i was 2 and we didn’t talk for years and then like a year ago he started msging me and stuff asking me to come see him but i would never forgive him and i would just shut him down and he has given up on me and now when i have nobody and all i want is to go live with him or talk to him about something i cant
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