so when i was younger i was pretty popular and i had lots of friends and stuff. But i was the “skinny” friend and i hated it because i was so small and my friends were all so much bigger than i was. So to combat that my dumb logic led me to eating more than what was humanely possible and i caught up with them. But by the time i caught up they werent my friends anymore and they would bully me for eating so much. I didnt really care and i kept up with my eating habits. I just wanted to have flesh like everybody else. A few years later my nickname changed from ”jaan” (translates to dear” to “motu” (translate into fat). I didnt like thid change because i had worked so hard for the perfect body and niw the standard were different. This went on fir a couple of years and now u have me. A tHiCc cHiLd who has stretch marks from their body constantly changing shapes and starves themselves on an off with some tandom periods of binge eating 😌💅