i have a boyfriend. i love him very much. but i’ve been questioning things lately. lately we’ve been arguing a lot. last night he brought up my past and he said that he feels like shit that he is my 7th boyfriend. i tried to reassure him saying that he was more special than the previous boys. he still somehow made me apologize for dating other guys before him. he knows how much i love him since he is the first guy i gave my body to after my sexual assault from a previous relationship. but even that made him feel like “shit” because he wasn’t the first person to touch me. he says that i’m a bad person because of a few mistakes i made. before i used to stand up for myself whenever i knew that i wasn’t at fault but now his words make me feel like i am at fault.. he makes me the bar person in every situation. our previous two breakups he blamed everything on me because he felt like shit dealing with my problems. now i just shut my mouth whenever i feel sad. each breakup he’d say it was my fault and that he fell out of love with me and that he doesn’t want to deal with my anymore. but each time he’d come back and i took him back. without him i’m nothing. i don’t know anymore. most of my friends say he’s just insecure but i don’t think it’s that. :(