I don’t really know how this website works but I just need to get something off my chest

my whole entire life I’ve wanted to be skinny or thin

all my best friends have all been insanely skinny and I’ve fucking prayed to look like them

over quarantine I started to lose weight, I was way to happy

dw I didn’t purposely lose weight it just happened

btw I’ve stared at my stomach from the side since the age of 6

just staring at it, sucking in to see what it would look like if I was thin

I wanted it so fucking badly

id walk around my room sucking in to know what it would feel like

Ive started gaining weight again and I hate it so much

if anyone else feels like this, know your not alone

you’ve got a long road ahead of you so just keep pushing

Ik I should be doing what I say and I am

i know I’ll be happy with myself one day

and I know it will come sooner then I think

to anyone that’s reading this, have a great day/night. your beautiful💖