hi!! i’m a girl, 16. i’m extremely overweight, 220 pounds, i am quite tall though. i’m growing up very sheltered since i was homeschooled after my friends in 5th grade told the school counselor that i was planning on killing myself. i was too embarrassed to stay and my family is too busy to transfer, so here i am. i guess with all the free time i just ate & ate. now, 16, i’m extremely depressed with severe anxiety & self esteem issues. i’ll constantly throw up my food, not eat, self harm, cry myself to sleep, etc. i feel extremely alone which is odd because there’s around 7 other people in my house lol. i know others shit on school,but i’ve really wanted to go back. my anxiety & self esteem issues stop me. my thing is “nobody will like me if i’m fat.” “8 should just starve til i lose a good 40 pounds.” etc. i don’t think i’ll ever be happy fat, but i don’t think i’m strong enough to lose weight. i’m really close to just ending my shit lol this all seems pretty pointless. i’m an extremely insecure and jealous person, i don’t think i’m ok, and can’t find a reason to be here :(