It’s been almost three months since I last harmed myself so I mean that’s good. I usually rant to myself but I think I’m going to try this. a lot of my self hate comes from being assaulted. I still question if it was or wasn’t assault. he threatened to commit if I didn’t and I gave in even though I could’ve said no. Another one he got me high for the first time and none of my friends stopped me. Third time I was on the bus and my friend watched as I hyperventilated. I’m scared of everything now. And i Hate myself so bad because everyone still brings him out and I am so done I feel horrible.
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so this is just a lil thing- you said tht u still question if 'it' was or wasnt assault but u consenting out of fear wasnt real consent,, him threatening to commit was him coercing u into doing whatever. its not your fault. i cant do anything 2 rlly help but i hope this was like.. helpful ig lol-