i don’t have anything to live for anymore. i spent months telling myself to look forward to my best friends birthday party. i’ve know her my whole life and she was turning thirteen. she’s my other half. at her party i had a panic attack and i calmed myself down but when she opened my gift she didn’t even seem to like it let alone love it. i spent months making it painting for her and all i got was a thank you after i said your welcome first. i panicced after that and had my mom take me home . she was my person and i can’t even talk to her anymore. i just seem to hate everyone even my best friends i don’t wanna be around them . i’m always bored but like in a different way. i don’t wanna live anymore , i don’t wanna kill myself i just wanna disappear.
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