I loose friends because of this, they think I don't care- i'm scared i wont be able to make new friends..
I try to- i try but i just always have a blank face whether it's exciting or sad.
Recently in like June (2020) my mother told me she may have cancer, I just had a blank face.. she started crying, thinking I don't care about her. I dont speak to anyone, I have major trust issues. I hate therapists and counselors- i believe they are going to tell my parents what I told them. I don't tell my friends my problems, my parents- it doesn't matter how close I am with them
i'm sorry ab ur mom :( i hope that things get better 4 u. sometimes, depression can make u feel numb or repress ur emotions. i rly recommend that u reach out to some1- i know that therapists and counselors can b scary bc sometimes they may tell ur parents but honestly they r a really good resource- but it's good that u're opening up here. no matter how u express ur emotions or to what extent, it is valid, but if u're experiencing numbness/apathy pls look into seeking help it's worth it!!!