i didn’t think i would ever do anything like this but i can’t keep everything inside for any longer. i need to vent so badly but i don’t wanna dump my problems on anyone around like a friend or some shit. i hate everything so badly. every moment everything just hurts. i’m only 13 and i’ve been having suicidal thoughts for so damn long. it like kinda start when i was in year 5 (age 10) and my sister had been in university for 1 year. i was really sad when she went cuz she was my favourite sibling but i knew it’s like education and stuff so i was alright with it. and then one day we got a letter from her saying that she doesn’t believe in the religion my family (not me, i don’t believe in it either) believes in and like a bunch of other shit. my mum was the one who opened the letter but she didn’t realise that i was standing behind her and i also read it. my sister then cut of all contact with our family and changed her phone number. i was only 10 and since no one knew that i knew, no one could support me. i was all alone and cried myself to sleep everyday for 2 years. i understand why she left because living like