honestly i don’t know whether i’m depressed or not, because my brain tells me my trauma isn’t that bad and that i’m just overreacting. and i always see people talking about how poor hygiene is a symptom of depression but the only way i can feel like an actual person is by showering and washing my hair. i’ve never gotten diagnosed by a therapist before, because i’m too anxious to ask my dad and i don’t want to get a therapist because i feel like they don’t want to listen to me and that they’re just being forced, which is what i feel like with everyone. i feel like no one actually likes me and that they all just feel sorry for me. i don’t feel like a human anymore, i just kind of want to die everyday cause i feel like it’ll make things easier. there’s a lot more but i’m not motivated enough to type it all out, i just don’t even know if i have any mental illnesses or if i’m just going through teenage hormones. it sucks. i also don’t know if i have anxiety cause i haven’t gotten that checked out either but i fit a lot of the basic criteria but i’m not really sure. i just feel like i’m looking for something to set me apart and i’m not actually mentally ill.