*tw* at the beginning of quarantine i became very depressed, but i didn’t tell anyone and hid my self harming. after i had convinced myself it was all in my head, i just became apathetic, until about a month ago when i started feeling this way again. i just want to die and i never enjoy anything anymore. i recently started seeing a therapist (after getting diagnosed with adhd) and started thinking/analyzing about my feelings more instead of repressing them. i am pretty sure that i am bipolar or have bpd (but i don’t want to self diagnose) because i have experienced many symptoms including hypomania (periods of time when i am extremely alert, energetic, and almost physically unable to stop talking randomly) and depression (but i don’t want to actually die so i don’t think it counts) but i still haven’t told my therapist any of this, or even about my self harm (it was my coping mechanism and then, bcs of my low body image i tried to stop eating but that was too hard because i don’t actually have a low self esteem ig that’s what it means idk) and i just don’t know how to open up i’m so scared i just need advice.
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Hey!If you have someone to talk to like your therapist then tell them I understand it will be hard but it will feel a lot better after-!They are there for a reason and you have to tell them!From D