Sometimes I look at myself in the mirror and note I have terrible skin, I’m to fat, I’m ugly and I bunch other things. I start to feel no hunger, and I mean I don’t really eat except when I eat dinner and that’s it, and I have to text my friend every night just to keep me in check to make sure I’m not hurting myself or throwing up what I eat. She is an amazing person and I don’t deserve her. I text her at 2am and she responds and I tell her everything that has been stuck in my mind about not even brushing my hair or getting out of bed anymore because I feel so worthless and out of touch with reality. That was one of the worst nights of my life I was crying on the floor ready to just jump out of a window or something but she responded and probably stopped me from doing anything I might have regretted and I thank her for that every day that I’m still here. And I always see people joking about having depression and social anxiety, but it’s just so much more than that and I can tell you from.my many experiences with me crying to my friends because I think everyone is staring at me or not having the energy to even respond to my texts. It’s been hard but she is the only one who has been getting me to eat something and brush my hair. She has been the best thing that’s happened to me and I can’t thank her enough.
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you are so strong and i know you can get through this! that friend of yours sounds like an angel. things will get better, i know it. xx💘