Hi reader!! Here's my problem oop- I can't not have attention, I hate when people talk about their problems because I feel I should be the only one that matters. Whenever my friends talk about something bothering them in a insta post, snap story or group chat, I get angry. Everyone asks if they're okay and makes them feel better and I hate that the attention is taken off of me. If someone new starts speaking to me I will purposefully keep them around to boost my ego, because I look popular talking to lots of people and feel wanted. I feel like a higher power, like I'm better than everyone else because people are begging to talk to me. I like the feeling of being able to fuck with their emotions if I wanted too. I like knowing that I can make them feel so bad with just a few simple words. I like the idea of leading people on for my own sick enjoyment and the worst part is, I genuinely like doing it. I feel terrible and I know I'm very toxic, I am getting help but I just thought I should share, especially so if there are others like this they know they are not alone <3