I was scrolling on TickTock yesterday and I came upon this video it was this video of this boy saying of the voices in his head if you do not race to that table in five seconds you’re gonna die and after he made it to the table in three seconds he was just like talking in his head with himself about how he almost didn’t make it and I do that sometimes I can just be randomly putting something in the microwave and I say to myself in my head without even realizing it if I don’t make it to this microwave before it’s it’s one second the whole world is going to explode and I just realize how crazy it is and I did this thing once and I can never forget it I told myself Well I’m not gonna say what I told myself because I’m slowly forgetting each day but it’s that memory of it still being there and me not remembering it it’s like it’s faded from my memories but it’s still there if you understand what I mean is if I don’t do this certain thing every single day I’m gonna die at a young age and every day I think of it and I just cannot stop it back to the TikTok in the TikTok I was reading the comments and everybody is saying well that’s OCDOCD that you shouldn’t self diagnose yourself but maybe it is OCD and I don’t understand along with OCD it gives me anxiety and it just stresses me out and I don’t think anybody around me would understand