Hey I don’t know what to say so if I mess up don’t judge and im not a great writer so plz don’t judge so let’s get started
I don’t really like my body I hate it so much I can’t even look at myself without breaking down and i want to be happy about my body but everyone seems to put me down about how I look and that doesn’t help try to love myself I try to push their opinions away but it makes it worse I was bullied about my body for years and still am and it sucks it hurts you in way I can’t explain and it doesn’t help when I was taken advantage at the age of 7/8 and I was young and I didn’t know it was wrong so I let it happen and he just did it with no regrets and I can still remember everything of what happened I could have screamed because they in the next room but I did nothing and I feel disgusted and worthless and my dad left for drugs and he thought I wasn’t his and so I grew up with my step dad and he was abused towards my mom I use to watch her get beat up all the time and he was so mean he scared me I thought he was gonna kill her one day. Half of my family is addicted to drugs and they are drunks I’m scared of losing them I don’t want to lose them. My “friends” hate me they talk about all the time I know that cause my actual friend tells me everything they say about me and they say I’m a bad influence cause I smoke and drink and tbh I kinda am I don’t want to go down the road where I’m a druggie and a drunk but I only smoke and drink anyways they treat me like shit and they always say rude stuff to me and they think I complain and act weird but in reality my anxiety does that to me they don’t know how that feels and hey I’m 1 month clean from self harm so that’s good I guess
Hey queen, i'm so sorry you're feeling like this. Please get away from these toxic people. I know it is hard but it is whats best for YOU AND ONLY YOU. You are so strong and i love you so much queen <3
Congratulations on being 1 month clean!!! Im SO proud of you! Now lets talk bby.
Body image:
If people bullied you about your body tell they are such fucking losers. I know you cant push there words away but the fact those ugly flee rats have the AUDACITY to comment on somebody else's body is so sad, they really are self conscious huh? As long as you are taking care of your body FUCK THOSE BITCHES. As much as I would want to punch them compliment them. Like if I said "you've gained weight" and the person replied with "I love your hair today it looks amazing" i would over think that for hours. Or just say "your definitely self conscious huh?". YOUR BODY IS BEAUTIFUL AND YOU ARE WORTHY
Drugs and alcohol:
You are in a family, surrounded by drugs and alcohol. I can just imagine its hard, SO so hard. All I have to say for this one is that you are strong. I PROMISE you can give this up (if you want), you just need to try. Im down to learn about drug addictions and how to get rid of them. I am also down to help bring the knowledge i learnt to you, we can get through these tough times together!
Rape:
WHO THE FUCK DID THAT TO MY BB. WHO THE FUCK. DONT YOU DARE FEEL DISGUSTED AND UNWORTHY, THAT PREDATOR IS. I CANT BELIEVE SOMEONE DID THAT. YOU ARE A SURVIVOR AND I LOVE YOU.
Friends
why are those ugly ass hoes speaking trash about you when they're the ones looking the a fat ass donkey fuck them. imagine one day you get famous, and you tell the whole world about their flee infected mouth. they can go to hell
Family
Im not sure about your current living situation! Who are you currently with?
IM HERE FOR YOU, YOU ARE SO STRONG AND I FEEL TERRIBLE ABOUT COMPLAINING ABOUT MY SITUATION. YOU ARE RESILIENT WHAT THE FUCK. THIS SITUATION WILL PASS. IM HERE FOR THE JOURNEY
i am so sorry :( i love you and i can understand where your coming from, please never give up you are very brave and i believe in you. i’m very proud of you for being 1month clean from self harm, your body is beautiful no matter what take my word for it please, and also please drop your toxic friends if you ever wanna talk my ig is animeglrl i rarely use instagram but you can vent to me and i’ll listen no matter what 💗