i feel like my entire life i’ve never actually had friends. i used to have a friend, but now she acts like she never really liked me at all. and the one friend i thought i had, is a sheltered privileged girl and doesn’t understand that i can’t just “be happy.” i want to dress a certain way but i have no money and every time i think about buying something, i end up thinking “i’d look ugly in it anyway. only skinny people can wear this.” i wish i could just be happy, because there’s no reason i can’t. i don’t have depression, so i always feel like when i’m sad i just want attention. idk, just numb.