To be honest I never thought I would ever do one of these cause I didn't think my problems were important. So I guess I'm just venting to myself unless somehow someone sees this. I don't know what to do and I don't even know if i choose the right category but I'm scared of my dad ever since my mom died he's always drunk and started talking to this woman online not even a year after my mother had past and he said that I"m his #1 priority. But he never seems to notice me unless he needs something or he wants to yell at me. Whenever I try to talk to him he's always on his phone with his girlfriend but when I call him out he starts screaming and blames me for it sometimes he'll throw things and destroy my room or the house. He sometimes hits me when I disagree with him or try to talk and defend myself but he doesn't do it lately since I'm always in my room. I also forgot to mention that I'm adopted. I never met my real dad since he had been in the jail at the time and my real mother was abusive so i'm not new to this treatment. Everyday I feel as though all my mental health is drained. I could sleep for 10 hours and I'd still be tired. I get random body aches, my eating schedules has changed and I'm suicidal. Though my adopted dad thinks it's silly to want to kill yourself. I'm slowly losing faith in living and the only thing keeping me here is going to Korea and living there. If it wasn't for that I'd probably wouldn't be writing this. And if I kill myself I don't want "those" people to act like they cared and ace like they were my friends, I don't want those people to act like they cared when I gave them so many signs while they chose to ignore it. This is probably my end for this story since I don't wanna bore you to death with my problems if someone is even reading this I doubt someone is reading this tho. But if someone in this world took the time of day to read this I know you can't do anything but I wanna thank you for at least someone reading this I was gonna put more but I don't think it would be necessary. I do hope I make it past 18 though and if I don't I wanna blame society for not taking this problem serious. Well that's all goodbye reader. ~Anonymous
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Hey beautiful human, I’m sorry you have had to endure such a toxic Household and your problems are absolutely valid and You don’t have to feel like they are not . I am also soooo glad you are looking forward to and thinking about the future because trust me it will be worth it so please keep fighting. Life has so much to offer and you have so much that you have yet to experience. Remember life has no original meaning, YOU give it meaning. So continue living and achieving your goals don’t let anyone knock you down because this is your life to live not theirs. I am wishing you the most amazing life stranger because honestly you deserve it and much more And don’t ever let anyone convince you otherwise 💛