i do kinda have a long story so i guess i will start off with what is happening to me recently. recently, my moms boyfriend has kicked her out of the of his house. we had no where to go. my mental health has been going downhill since we started living there. i should be grateful i’m out of that house but i don’t know what to feel. when i lived my dad my mental health was terrible. i was shamed for being lesbian. i cut and starved myself and no body even noticed. well if they did they didn’t say anything nor cared. i had never felt enough since living there. my mom works full time and drinks quit frequently so she doesn’t rly have any time for me. so i resorted to people on the internet. a few months ago i met this girl from louisiana. i have never opened up to someone the way i did with her. she was, and is one of the things keeping me strong. i don’t think she understands how much she means to me. i hate when people feel bad for me so i don’t tell people much. over the months we have drifted. we even had a little thing where we dated over the internet. today she told me she thought she was straight. my heart shattered bc i do truly care about her. idk, it seems dramatic but she was helped me thru a lot. but she changed, not in a good way. but i can’t leave bc she is all i have.
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hey girly. i know times are tough right now and im so so proud of you for staying strong this whole time ! keep continuing to stay strong , i know its hard right now but the universe has a path for you, i promise. and i‘m so glad youre out of that toxic house that has been making you feel that way. and i really hope youve learned to stop cutting baby, i want to let you know that theres absolutely NOTHING wrong with being lesbian. i’m all here for it ❤️!
a little tip:
rubbing ice on your skin gives you the same sensation as if you’re cutting, you may apply red food coloring to make it look like blood if that satisfies you :) .
im also so very sorry to hear about your mother. i dont know how your relationship is with her but if you’re able to, talk to her about it, let her know. if theres no way to do that thats okay, there are people that love you and appreciate you. if shes toxic to you then focus on getting away, thats also not good for your mental health, but then again i could be wrong and she could be understanding <3.
im also sorry to hear about how things have changed with the female you were hoping to be with . maybe she just needs time to figure out what shes interested in luv, but please dont stress about her/chase her, if anything between you two is meant to be then she will come back. if you ever need to talk my snap is maryandyami. you can talk to me about all your problems all you want , ill listen and try my best to give back advice for you.
we all love you,
i love you :) stay strong babe❤️.