uh so my story fits in a lot of categories but i just chose mental health cause yea- anyways, this all started when i was in 5th grade, i had extreme self esteem issues and i would usually cut. my family was very distant with me and still are. i got bullied and i barely had friends then came 6th grade, same things happened, i got bullied, i felt like shit, and i cut it got to the point where i would cut deeper and deeper into my previous cuts. one day my dad noticed them. he then slapped me, called my mom and they continued to yell at me god i was seriously scared i really couldn’t talk to my parents about anything which only worsened my mental health when my mom would pick me up from school, i always got yelled at for the smallest things one day, it was really hot so i was wearing shorts and my mom called me a slut and hit me i was only 11 then came 7th grade. the bullying had stopped but i kept getting used by people- childhood trauma caused me to mature early which lead to me being attracted to older men i was 12/13 dating 16 and 17 year olds. they would all use me i tried to commit suicide once or well i was trying to strangle myself but i couldn’t anyways other then that, in 7th grade i would just be extremely depressed well now i’m in 8th and it hasn’t gotten better my mom is extremely toxic and i hate it so much because i love her and i can’t live without her but she hurts me so much.... i sleep all day as a coping mechanism and i wake up to my mother yelling at me and telling me how lazy and worthless i am i barely eat and when i do i purge i feel so guilty eating and i just feel physically hurt like all the time my body and head is always aching. my mom asked me if everything was ok and me being desperate for help, i said no. then i further explained to her that i’ve been feeling depressed and well...u h it didn’t go well and now i’m crying in my bed venting to strangers
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honestly im glad u shared. i understand the guilt that she is your mom but toxic is toxic. please know that you are valid and your feelings are valid. also please try to stay. i promise it will be okay. also rememeber that there is no man in this world entirely worthy of your love. not a single one. men aint shit. i hope this helped even a little bit. i love you please stay strong.