they decided to put me into an online course that you do at your own pace this year. The fact that i cant teach myself from the textbook and i get everything wrong is really depressing. its been five months and i have not finished unit one. my parents always yell at me why im not doing it but ive tried and tried. it feels like no one understands me and people ask me why i dont just do it. there are 200 assignments at once and its really overwhelming. There are also no due dates. this class is the worst class im in. I have pretty good marks in normal school but this class has been weighing on me for ages. my friends also ditched me this year and i dont see the point anymore. my only job is to do good in school and i cant. i am so average. i dont stand out, rather i blend in as if no one sees me, besides my old friends that just talk about me when i walk by. i have emotions too but i dont think anyone cares.