I've been almost 3 months clean from c*tting and its been one month since my last attempt i guess u could say i'm proud but my insecurities have been coming back and everything's just getting worse i hate my body more and more everyday. i sit by my mirror every night with tears rolling down my eyes wondering why i'm never enough. my only coping mechanism was c*tting and I've just about gotten my scars to fade,i really don't want to start again. i just cant get my mind to work with me and its so frustrating. i hate living in the household i am at right now.my parents are always pointing out my weight and telling me how i'm never good enough making me feel uncomfortable and unsafe.its been really hard to even try to reach my 3rd month. i have my blades sitting in my blazer pocket and whenever i reach in there for something, i feel them and when i do the memories of my crying in the middle of the night and self h*rming just rush through my mind idk if i can hold on for any longer...
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hey. this broke my heart to read. you are worth so much more than you think and there are so many people that love you. i know that its difficult but you have to tell someone. you may feel like there is no way out but there will be a light at the end of the tunnel. tell a trusted adult how you feel, although you may not want to you have to understand there is nothing embarrassing about this, so many people go through this and it is not your choice. it is an illness that you don't have control over. you should see a therapist, i know a lot of people that go to therapy and its really helpful. it will be okay in the end, and if its not okay, its not the end.
ps if you want to message me anytime, my snap is hazel_mw xxx