i’ve been almost six months clean since my last relapse and attempt. i’ve been proud but recently, my ptsd has been taking a toll on me. i used to be abused as a child and i was sexually harassed and assaulted by one of my family members. i keep hating on my body and blaming myself for my traumatic childhood despite how useful my coping mechanisms are. i just can’t get my mind to work with me, and it’s so so frustrating. i hate living in this household, and i just want to become financially stable enough to leave. im a closeted queer, with homophobic parents, its been very difficult. my dad has been nothing but a help, he keeps staring and commenting on me, my sister, and my mom’s body, repeatedly making us uncomfortable and feel unsafe. despite not being physically abused anymore, he still brings back such traumatic incidents from my childhood. it’s been hard trying to reach my seventh month
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im so proud of you for staying clean for 6 months, thats huge!! and im so so sorry you had to deal with that as a kid. but please remember that it was not your fault!! and if you can, once youre of legal age, maybe look into getting your own place to get away? idk. ily