I hate talking about this but i’m carrying it for so long. My boyfriend doesn’t even know. nobody but 2 people know. My ex bestfriend used to give me alcohol and get my drunk, yes i should have known better, but i’m 13 and wanted to feel like i was being cool or something. i wanted to feel something, and after i’d get drunk, she would get on me after i told her to stop, she would finger me, and make out w me. i hated it i hate that i let her do it. it’s my fault i feel. I hate everything at this point.