This is my first time trying this but hello I'm going by the pseudonym AK which are my initials. Recently my anxiety has spiked to an all time high. For some reason I don't feel safe in my own home and keep checking every corner if anyone is there. I always ask my little sister to also come with me to do anything outside of my room and make up stupid excuses as to why she should. I feel like someone's eyes are on me or someone will put their hands on me. I'm scared because when I was younger I was sexually assaulted. I didn't tell anyone until I was in the fifth grade about 1-2 years after it happened and when I did they rejected me. Their words hurt me so badly I still remember that day crystal clear no matter how hard I try to forget. I live with my dad after moving away from my abusive mother. I trust my dad a lot and he doesn't act strange at all but I don't like wearing certain clothes or cover up whenever he's around and I don't feel dad even though I'm alone with just my sister at home and the doors are locked and secure I'm still terrified and don't feel safe if the door is open at night or open for two seconds in the day time. I'm terrified when taking showers and even using the bathroom. I wish I never said anything in fifth grade and probably never will again. That is all I had to vent about.
- AL