hi. so when I was 4 years old my cousin took me into the closet at my grandma's house and he told me we can play a game if I don't tell anyone. he made me touch things with the light off and I had to guess what it was, and eventually made me give him a blowjob. this kind of stuff went on until I was 11. I am 13 almost 14 now. I never told anyone. from when I was 6-9 years old, my other cousin would make me play husband and wife. but we played wife and wife since she is a girl. we would go in my aunt's bedroom and lock the door. she would make me eat her out, and do other things because it was "normal". I'm not even sure if it was sexual assult but I can't ever come forward because I don't feel like it negatively impacted me to where I have trauma or anything like that.