They only liked me for my body, they got what they wanted and left.
I feel so toxic for my current boyfriend, he’s so nice and listens and understands and does everything he can to make me feel happy and safe.
i don’t want to control him, I don’t want to stop him from doing things he likes.
i got drunk with friends and ended up remembering things from my past that I forgot about completely, it’s so scary.
im hypersexual because of past trauma but I’m also afraid of being pregnant so my anxiety is always heightened.
I’m young but i feel like I’m not good enough.
i rarely talk about the specific parts of it but I just wish I was like ✨them✨ all the pretty girls online
My chest is small, or average for my age. but I hate it. I’ll joke on saying I want surgery but I’m so ready to mutilate my own self for a bigger chest. I can’t even handle people joking about “big tiddy anime girls” it literally makes me cry it’s so awful
Even the topic of porn.
and it’s just because someone told me I looked like their favourite pornstar, and another said he preferred porn over me because I was “boring“ at the age of 14. I hate it. I hate porn, I hate girls in anime and games, I hate seeing people online in tight bikinis or revealing clothes. I think they’re beautiful but I just want to be them so bad so I can be as pretty as society wants. So I can finally be comfortable and happy, so I can be less insecure about conversations and jokes. I feel so stupid for being like this. I really do.