hi, I may sound stuck up here, but i don’t really want to rant to my irl friends because i don’t want to sound toxic to them.
anyways, I was close friends with this one boy, I’ve known him for many years. we met during elementary, stopped talking during middle school just because we went to different places and didnt have contact. then freshman year of highschool, i was seated behind him in english for the whole year. we quickly clicked once again.
i introduced him to my best friend, and the three of us formed this close trio. we hung out together every week, even exploring the city and going to events together. we also hung out separately, such as just the two of them when i was busy, or just him and me when she was away.
i remember playing online games with him (our third friend wasn’t much of a gamer) or laughing hysterically on the swing sets late at night. we were good friends, and i considered him one of my closest friends.
I even found out that he liked my best friend, and helped give him advice. they ended up going out for a bit, but they eventually broke up. however, the three of us were still a trio.
⚠️ TW ⚠️
one night, pretty late, I ended up texting him. i was telling him about this other boy that was flirting with me, and we were both excited lol. then i texted something along the lines of “you aren’t a part of girl council, sorry dude 😔” . that’s when his texts did a 180 and he started saying that “his opinion didn’t matter to me” much. i told him that’s not what i meant, but he either ignored me or blocked my number.
now, my best friend had previously told me that he had suicidal thoughts in the past, as the two of us basically tell each other everything. this had stuck with me and i was obviously worried, and had sent him about ten texts asking if he was ok and if he’d respond to let me know that he was ok.
he didn’t. my other friend had told me he was texting her, so it wasn’t like his phone was dead. after a quick search, i saw that he also removed me as a friend on discord and skype. i have a bit of a temper myself, so i was annoyed but whatever.
however, after hanging out with my other friend multiple times, she has told me a few things on what he had said regarding me. she is still close friends with him and hangs out with him, which i don’t care as i don’t want to gatekeep who she can and can’t be friends with <3
first, he had told her that i blocked him on everything. this annoyed me a bit, considering at this point i didn’t even block his number (although by now, i have).
second, he had said that he had thought that i was super self absorbed in my appearance. anyone who knows me knows that’s basically not the case. i dabble in a bit of makeup, but i don’t “fish for compliments” as he worded it.
finally, he recently told her that he felt as if i “didn’t care about our friendship” before the fight. this really just made me sit and think, because i have no idea what actions i could have done before our “fight” to let him and believe that. i treated him exactly as any other friend, and as i said before i considered him one of my CLOSEST friends.
he also said that he “tried to be my friend“ which idk. it makes me feel like he had been pretending or something, which doesn’t sit well with me. i feel like he should have told me or something.
oH, and he did recently text me saying “didn’t mean for things to turn out this way, but oh well.” i’m probably just being toxic, but i hate that. i feel like that he doesn’t even care that we aren’t friends anymore.
however, i don’t really want to talk to him face to face because at this point, i’m sure i’ll end up punching him. which is bad and i’d like to not do that (: so i ended up coming here instead.
this is super long so i doubt anyone has read this but i really needed to let this out. 🌼
anyone who just abandons ur friendship isn’t worth ur time, especially if they wrongly put the blame on u like that. u handled that rly well, something similar happened to me and i can’t say i was nearly as calm lol. i totally understand where ur coming from when u said ”it makes me feel like he had been pretending or something”. my bsf i’d known since elementary completely switched up on me all of a sudden, now he says he couldn’t care less. it’s kinda nice to know there’s someone else in the same predicament. if u wanna talk i’d love to be friends :)