i know this isn’t really that serious but it just hurts. it’s my friends , they break my heart more than boys do. it’s just hard cus i feel like the least wanted in the group , the one who’s always forgotten , the one no one really cares about. it’s hard then i see them do stuff without me but i don’t want to say anything cus i want them to be happy and have fun , i really do it’s just i i wish i could be there. they act like they love me yet they don’t rlly care , i’m only there for convenience when they need help or when they have to talk to someone. it’s never the other way around, i have stuff i want to say to , i want to tell them how worthless and empty they make me feel , how embarrassed but when i try they don’t listen. they never really hear what i day never apologise and just constantly tear me heart into pieces i don’t even know if i can survive it any anymore i just don’t wanna feel i don’t want my heart to keep breaking and feel a hole in my chest continue to tear apart in agony and i don’t want to cry myself to sleep every night .im just so sick of it