Bruh.......this is a good one
sooooo where do I start....
this is gunna be long sooooo ya good luck
so basically first things first I’m not straight and no I’m not sure what my sexuality is I’m kinda just vibing right now. The problem is my dad is a pastor and I came out to him telling him I like not just men and he didn’t cope good with that and basically ignores that part of me. I have to hide it around him.
anyways so I have a best friend who is Christian, but she doesn’t know about me not liking just men, but I don’t care about that rn. Anyways I’ll give her the code name Cassie. So Cassie has a sister (we will give her the codename Emily). Cassie and Emily are only a year apart in age so Cassie is 18 and Emily is 17. I hang out with them all the time we have a big friend group. So Cassie and Emily have an older brother who is 20 (we will name him Beck). Anyways beck was going to bring his friend from college home with him cause he needed a place to stay for the summer (we will name becks friend josh). So a couple days before josh came, I was hanging out with Cassie and Emily. They talked about josh coming and Im a crazy person so I was like “but is he cute???” They said he ain’t bad, and he wasn’t. I was joking around lol. But then the day beck was driving to go get josh I got a DM from josh. He said “hey heard u were talking about me just wanted to say hi” . we talked on insta for a bit and he asked for my number. I told Cassie and Emily everything that was going on with us and that he texted me and stuff. So one day I go to sleepover at Cassie and Emily’s house, and it was going to be my first time meeting josh. We got along well and I played Monopoly with him, beck, Cassie, and Emily. I’m pretty sure everyone could tell we were flirting. So anyways a couple days go by and we texted everyday for a bit and it kind of died down. But then before it died down I started to notice Emily messing with josh a lot in a flirty way and I thought nothing of it. So then later on when me and josh were not really talking anymore, i was hanging with Cassie Emily and our group and josh was there and apparently Cassie got on to Emily about Emily putting her head on josh’s Shoulder. Now that set me off. So we get home from hanging out and Cassie says “ugh my family has talked to them about this“ and I was like ”what?” And Cassie said “u know they like each other right?” then I said “ I kind of got a hint”. I was not mad at first until I found out their thing started While me and josh were talking.
All this was about a month ago. I see Cassie and emily like every week and Emily is all mushy with josh now acting like we never had a thing. I’m not that mad about it anymore I’m kinda just done with men.
Ive still been talking to Emily tryna be nice because I can get real mean real quick then Emily will act like she’s the victim.
Its even worse because I live in a small conservative town so girls are not an option for me.
Im staying home the rest of the year to work (I’m 18 just graduated high school) so ya hopefully the rest of my year is better.
this whole thing was just terrible on my self esteem because I’m not the skinniest girl, but I’m decent looking but Some men r dogs these days they just want perfect Women but ya it Sucks cause I know I have a good personality and everything ive been used a lot I just feel like I deserve more but it’s whatever
anyways if u read the whole thing u r awesome lol
lemme know what u think or if u have questions lol
Emily seems like the type to hoe around get her heart broken (her fault) then play the victim. And if I was u I would fight her but thats cuz I got anger issues lol
emily is low-key a bitch tho
well emily needs to cut the shit she at least shouldve told you before you started pursing josh that she liked him