i am so fucking lonely. my friends don’t try to reach out or talk to me unless something fun and interesting happened to them. i have a huge crush on a guy at my school, who liked me back before covid, i don’t know if he still does though i haven’t talked to him in 4/5 months. at night i hug myself and cry because i wish somebody would wrap their arms around me and just hold me and tell me “i love you” or “everything’s going to be ok!” i just want friends, or a boyfriend or maybe even both. i’ve been manifesting for the guy i like to ask me out back when school starts back up. i’ve manifested smaller things before, like finding a 10 dollar bill on the street, or my mom picking my up mcdonald’s and it worked. but maybe those were just a coincidence. anyways, i consider myself a social person and i would rather die than be alone the rest of my life, being alone is my worst fear.
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