since my step dad passed away, my mom had gotten depressed and we lost our house due to it. my mom got me a dog because i had gotten depressed too. we rented a room but we didn’t feel safe there but we had nowhere else to go , we stayed for about a year and we finally got our own place again. at my new school is were i made my bestie. we didn’t even last a year there before we got evicted . from that we asked my aunt if we could stay there until we got a new place. they did let us but ended up kicking us out and we would stay in our car. i wouldn’t share this with anyone cause of embarrassment. we finally found somewhere to stay but again, it was a rented room, i later found out that we couldn’t keep our dogs that we had for around 3-4 years that helped me with depression. we put them up for adoption. that same day i had enough courage to tell my besties about how i’ve been living and they said they are there for me and all that good stuff. my bday was coming up but i was in mexico cause the owner of the house said she was gonna remodel the room. well we came back from mexico for my bday week and they had a surprise for me . i went to one of their houses and they had decorated the house for me. and they had all these surprises that i can’t thank them enough for but i rea wasn’t feeling myself that day cause of everything happening and they noticed that i was off and it’s true, i didn’t show any emotion that whole day and i always get told that i look depressed. anyways the next day came by and they decided to ft me and i was gonna tell them i was sorry for how i was acting but they basically told me that they didn’t like how i reacted that day and i told them why so many times but idk it wouldn’t get through their heads and i felt so bad but one of them said i could’ve ignored what was going on in my life but there was so much more then what i was comfortable telling them and it’s not that easy to ignore. some days went by and it was around national bff day that i had texted them i’m sorry and they just kept going on about my reaction, and then national bff day came by but i didn’t know and i opened up insta and saw that they posted eachother and i was lowkey trippin but when i texted them again and asked about it they said they wanted me to say happy national bff day to them. but why would i if they posted eachother ? and soon they just star removing me from their highlights and we had a streak and they left me on opened for days now bur i thought we were good cause we would ft here and there and they just randomly stoped talking to me . i have so much to tell anyone and i just want someone to listen but no one even checks up on me anymore.
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