i got really close with a friend. like really close. we both talked about everything together. we came out to each other too. it was a big deal. i always knew she liked me. like deep down but never brought it up. last year we got super close to where i thought i liked her. i was really lonely and she was my only source of validation. so we both told each other we liked one another. and at sleep overs we would cuddle. i never thought of it as a lot. but looking back it was. i feel like i was manipulated into this but at the same times i don’t know. it’s all so confusing. i still think abt her all the time. i just want to be like we were before. i just want to be friends again. i don’t want anything we did before to happen again. but as we got closer last year she kept losing her spark. she stopped being so energetic. she would be on her phone at lunch. she would be really quiet at sleepovers. she just lost it all. i want to know what happened. but i also need to stay strong.
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