I am in a friend group with 2 other girls and we all get along well and I enjoy their company, but I can't help but feel like I'm always the second choice.
Keep in mind I am a pretty emotionally aware person and it's easy for me to spot a liar and how someone feels. Lately, I have noticed that my friends have gone out without me on multiple occasions behind my back. I haven't said anything because I don't want to stir up trouble, but it's really started to hurt my heart and on top of that they tend to use me for answers on tests, homework etc. and I mainly feel they keep me in 'the group' for their own help :(
I help one of them, I'll call her Ash, on a regular basis with technology stuff for school and uploading things to her social media. One time she needed me to help her with something on her phone and when she handed it to me she forgot to close the tab with her iMessage conversation to our other friend (I'll call them Kiki). Basically the conversation was about them planning for some sort of sleepover or something. Once again, I pretended not to see it. And that's only one of the many times they have gone out without me.
I've tried to talk to myself about how it's not a big deal, but it just keeps happening. On top of that, one time Ash and I were going to hang out at Kiki's, but Ash got grounded and couldn't go, so it was just Kiki and I. The next day she asked us how it was and we told her we had a nice time but wished she could have joined us. Ash then proceeds to cry because we went out without her. I mean, after all the alone time she spent with Kiki you would have thought she could have handled it better.
It's clear that I'm not their favorite friend and that I should find some new people, but I don't really know how. Do I completely drop them? Try to talk to them about how I feel? Not sure. Anyway, thank you for giving me space to just right this all out. It really means a lot! :)
P.S. I found this site on TikTok if you were wondering :))