I used to be a very social person I had a lot of friends at school and a lot of friends at dance. but once I moved schools I lost some of my best friends. and throughout the season at dance everything started to get so complicated. during Covid i have made so many realizations about my friends and so much drama happened. in the end it left me with not a lot of people. my best friend who i used to share everything with now only makes me feel pathetic about my lack of friends and lack of success in my mental health. I mean she's thriving and im so happy for her. im glad that the she has so many friends but that doesn't change the feeling I get when she has all these people hitting her up and how that makes me feel when I get excited for that one notification which turns out to be from the news app or streaks. my life is sad right now. both of my close friends have so many people to pick from to hangout with and im not about to go tell them they are all I have. I dont wanna be pathetic ya know. and its sad that I feel this way because all I want to be is happy but I can't find out how to be.
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