TW ( i did not sensor any of these words)
VERY DESCRIPTIVE
I started cutting when I was in 8th grade, I had just entered a new friend group and they cut as a joke and a competition. Even though i wasnt included in the competition i felt excluded. And decided to try it out, just once though. I didnt do it for a while, I just got back into my spiral around last month. I still remember what it looked like, two horizontal lines on my left arm. I was so proud. Maybe SH makes me feel tough. But I took a picture and i still cant believe my wrist was that clear. I have 13 cuts right now, that are textured/visible. Im sure i have more. When i dont cut hard enough, i spend some time pulling the cut apart so blood comes out. And im proud, idk of what. The scars maybe? Maybe that i can withstand the pain and i like it. Like when you start its just this pain that leaves a little mark, but grows into a scar. Am i crazy?